Camden received a diagnosis of Autism today. (This is the final report we have been waiting for from an evaluation that we started back in April.) They felt Autism was the appropriate diagnosis because of his speech deficits (repeating words/phrases, using movie scripts when playing, using sounds instead of words when speaking at times).
I have such mixed emotions tonight. Anger, sadness, uncertainty, and then a gentle reminder from God that everything will be fine. I always feel God's presence the most when I am going through a rough spot. It's when I remember to stop and listen to what He is telling me... and I always hear sweet words of encouragement and love. Sometimes he even sends an extra little sign to show He's here for me, maybe in the form of a note from a friend sending peace and love (if you're reading this, thanks so much for that).
Now I need to focus on making positive changes around here. Taking one thing at a time. Doing what I need to do to get Camden the services that he needs, and figuring out what decisions are best for him, and our family as a whole. Tomorrow I'm going to take some time and really just play and cherish my little ones. I want to really see all of the special blessings they bring to my life.